As part of my priestly ministry, I
try to visit those members of our parish community who are sick or homebound,
the large majority being elderly. I’ve
asked all of those who do home visitations to give me a list so that I, too,
can accompany them (when I’m able).
On one of those visits – last Friday,
in fact – I met a sweet lady named Divolda.
Seventy years old, Divolda was diagnosed earlier this year with cancer, and
unfortunately the treatments didn’t really help her very much. When I met her she was in her bed in a very
simple house located in one of the favelas of the parish. A small, hot bedroom had become the extent of
her world since it hurt too much to get out of bed anymore. Because her children often had to work, the
small whir of the fan in the corner was the only noise she would hear for many
hours. But she held on to her rosary and
she enjoyed looking at a nice statue of our Lady the Mystical Rose.
As I sat down at her bedside, she
grasped my hand and tried to smile. We
talked a little bit about her family, about where she had grown up (in a little
village in the forest on the banks of a tributary river to the Amazon), and she
told me all about how much she loved Jesus and Mary. I was touched to the depths of my being how
this suffering woman was very concerned about her children and the nieces and
grandchildren that she had raised. “I
can’t go, Father. Who will take care of
them if I’m not here? Who will look
after my autistic grandson?”
When the conversation quieted down
and the only sound in the room was the whir of that fan in the corner, I asked
her if she wanted to receive the sacrament of reconciliation. “Father, that would make me very happy.” I was humbled by the simplicity of her
confession and the great devotion she shared with me. Here was a bed-ridden widow who, with
simplicity of heart, made one of the most loving confessions I think I’ve ever
heard.
After celebrating absolution, we
invited the rest of the family members in to celebrate with us the sacrament of
anointing of the sick. Divolda was so
happy to receive the sacrament, and she participated very actively. When she received communion a single tear
rolled down her cheek. I asked her why
she was crying, and she said very simply, “I love Jesus.”
Together with the visitation team and
the family members we talked a bit more and, in its simplicity, the conversation
was actually quite happy. I left feeling
very grateful to our loving God for having had this opportunity to share these
sacraments with this lovely lady.
On Tuesday morning I decided to check
in on Divolda… I’m not really sure why.
I called up the visitation team and together we went to visit Divolda
and her family. Though poor themselves,
the visitation team put together a basket with basic foods and coffee to help
out Divolda’s family during this trying time.
We arrived at Divolda’s home and her neice told me that unfortunately her
aunt really wasn’t up to receiving a whole bunch of visitors today… she was
still sleeping and had been since the day before. We talked for a few minutes and I let the niece
know that I understood her concern for her aunt, but asked if I might just go
in for a moment to say a prayer for Divolda and give her a blessing; the niece
consented.
I entered the room and the first
thing I noticed was how hot it was in there, and how silent it seemed with just
the whir of the fan. I went and sat
beside Divolda’s bed and reached for her fragile hand. Holding it gently, I began to stroke her
forehead and I asked her if she could hear me.
She didn’t respond nor did she open her eyes, but it seems to me that her
hand every so softly tried to squeeze my hand.
In the silence I noticed that her breathing was quite labored and
irregular. I said a prayer for her… and
then something inside of me took me back to my own dad’s bedside nearly 18
years ago. And I remembered something
that a very special cousin of mine had told me I needed to do as my own father
was preparing to enter into eternal life.
“My dear Divolda, you’ve run the good
race and you’ve fought the good fight.
You shared your love not only with your own children but even with other
people’s children, raising them to be good people. You’ve done everything that God put you here
on earth to do. Now you can go
home. Jesus is there waiting for you
with his arms open, ready to give you a great big hug when you arrive
there! And Jesus is just waiting to show
you happiness and joy without all of the pain that accompanied this
illness. My dear Divolda, you’ve done
all that you possible could, and your family will be fine. They’ll be sad, but they’ll be happy that you
don’t feel the pain in your body anymore.
Divolda, when you are ready, feel free to go home to be with Jesus and
that beautiful lady that you’ve been admiring, the Mystical Rose. When you’re ready, don’t be afraid!” I gave her a kiss on the forehead, gave her a
blessing, and I left.
The visitation team invited me for
coffee since it was mid-morning. They shared
their plans for their community with me and we talked about politics a little
bit. As we were finishing, we said a
little prayer together. And at the end
of that prayer I said, “Dad, whenever she decides to come home, please take
care of Divolda!”
Later that afternoon I received a
phone call that shortly after our visit Divolda passed from this life to the
next. Just as they are right now as I
write this, goosebumps appeared on my arms and legs and my eyes welled up. I thanked God for having given me the honor
of celebrating – quite by chance! – the last days and the last moments of
Divolda’s life here on earth. I thanked
God for the privilege of having had that one last moment to “give her
permission” to go home. And looking up
into the sky I said, “OK, Dad. Now it’s
your turn. Take care of her, Dad!”
From 1998: Dad celebrating as Deacon at my first Mass. |
Mom, Dad, Michelle, my nephew Matthew and I at a family barbecue in 1998. |